Diaries Of A Trophy Wife

I shouldn't expect anything

Today, being my first day back to work, I was thinking that maybe someone, anyone, would say, "Hey, how are you feeling?" or just simply, "Hi, Trish." for that matter. But I shouldn't have expected anyone to be so gracious. Sometimes I have to laugh at how rude people are, but it really is a sad thing that they were not taught any manners. I guess in a way I am just as much to blame though because I tend to keep to myself. I know this is going to sound so simple, but come to find out it causes me so many problems. I get nervous around people, that comes across to them that I am not very friendly, so therefore they don't like me. Hmmm. I guess that makes sense. But that's not me. I'm not the hateful type, or the unfriendly type. This may be someone's first impression of me, but it should never be a lasting one. And I guess it's my fault that I let people perceive me in that way. I think I missed the class on people skills when I was little or something. At least now I know what it is. Now that it's out in the open maybe I can't go back and fix people's opinion (some I don't care to) but I can start off better with new people.

My mom sent me an email last night of a web page that she wanted me to read an article on about keeping friends close. Well, she didn't say which article to click on so I clicked on the main one and I'm really glad that I did. It was about forgiving people, something that I have a really hard time doing. I don't know about everyone, but I have always had this preconceived notion that forgiving people meant that everything had to go back to the way it was before or that it was telling that person that what they did was ok. They talk about it so much in church, how you have to forgive to be forgiven by God. But the difference is that people tell God they are sorry and ask for forgiveness. I don't always have my phone ringing off the hook with people saying they are sorry. In fact, in most cases I have, the person won't even admit they have done anything wrong. I am probably guilty of that too. But when I am wrong I do my best to admit it and apologize. It's really hard to admit your own mistakes to others. Anyways, my back to the article. It helped me out alot to understand that isn't what forgiving someone has to be. Forgiveness is about letting go of the problem for yourself, not necessarily for them. And it's about not letting it rule your life anymore. I just thought I'd share that, maybe it will help someone else.