Diaries Of A Trophy Wife

Hopefully this year will mean a new start. As most of you don't know, I've struggled with depression for a long time, more so lately. Not that it matters so much telling people about it, I just keep it to myself for some reason. As I've said lately I've had a harder time than normal, that's why I haven't been posting much...I don't want people to have to read depressing crap. I am just figuring maybe getting my feelings out will help me deal. A couple of my friends have done a 2006 year in review and as I was thinking what my review would look like it wasn't very pretty.
January-Started a new job at St. Mary's ER doing patient registration...it freaked me out being in Huntington, a big town to me and also seeing people come in that had overdosed, got stabbed or shot, trauma patients that were missing body parts, and people who died really got to me.
February- Moved away from home for the first time to Apple Grove, WV, Travis' hometown, so that I could be closer to work, and be closer to his family.
March- Left my job at St. Mary's because I couldn't handle all of what I said before. And moving closer to Trav's family proved to be a big mistake.
April-May-June- were all pretty much the same. I did the housewife routine, cooked and cleaned. And I feel deeper into depression because of a problem between Travis' parents and us.
July-We bought our first house and moved back home to Syracuse. This was the high point of my year, but I still couldn't shake the bad feelings that I was having.
August-Tried to stay busy working on the house.
September- Lost a really good friendship because I found out she was abusing prescription medicine and after trying to help her quit she did it anyways. Also started a new part time job at EMS.
October-November- Once again had a difficult time. My mom was having a hard time at work and it was really hard to see the way she was being treated. Also started talking to my friend Anna again.
December- Tried to let things go as much as possible for the sake of the holidays without success. It just seems that everything is still here nagging at me.
Sorry for the nature of this post. I just never have anything good to post so usually I don't say anything at all.