I'm confused about this decision

I have been thinking very seriously about going back to college to finish my degree. Not full time, but taking a class or two at a time that way I could to my homework while Dalen is napping and after he goes to bed at night. Until he gets alittle older I would take classes offered online that way I would still be home with Dalen. And when there is a class that I would have to go to campus for later on, there is an on-campus daycare available. I have made the decision to stay at home with Dalen and I want to be there for him anytime he needs me. Would this take away from that? Is it realistic to think that I can do this? One reason I'm thinking about doing this is to finish what I started and make that accomplishment. And if I decide to work later on when Dalen is in school then I would be able to use my degree. It has bothered me for a long long time that I didn't finish school..that I QUIT. So if I finish I wouldn't be able to say to myself anymore that I am a quitter. Am I being completely unreasonable here? I have done most of the paperwork that I need to do without paying for anything yet that way I can think alittle bit more about this without having so much work to do later when classes are about to start. I have made the decision though that if I do go back I will be transferring from Rio Grande to WSCC. I think that is best for many reasons, number one being it's a good school, number two it would be a fresh start for me. I have alot of thinking to do. Travis is supporting my decision either way he says. But I think that he really wants me to finish, which I want that too. But what my hang up is..is this the best time, do I want more debt (not really)? Another thing I'm worried about is Travis has a 4.0 and is almost finished, I could not begin to compete with that....yes I am a competitive person....but I don't want to be held up to standards that I can't meet by other people, namely my family. I know that Travis wouldn't care if I brought home an F as long as I tried my best. I know that I could do it if I put my mind to it. I might be a terrible grouch, which I have been lately anyways, but I could do it.

2 comments:

Angie said...

I think it would be great for you to go back to school! You would still be with Dalen, but you would also be doing something for yourself that will be better for you and your family. Either way, you're doing a wonderful job with Dalen!

The Smith Family said...

Go to back to school if it's an option. Your little guy can benefit from being around other kids for a few hours a day while you are in class. Don't think you are being a bad mommy for leaving him for a few hours to educate your self, in the long run you are doing it for him. It's great for you!

Thanks for your comment on my page. Let me know how your appt goes and what your doctor says to you. My email is misti.smith@gmail.com if you ever wanna chat. :-)

Good luck with everything.